jude and lucy, there are some things that i want you to know. i have learned some valuable lessons that i want to share with you as you navigate through life. i call it the lowdown. the inside information on life, love, and what’s really important.
i’ve always known this famous poetic line.
“’tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.”
it hadn’t completely made sense until recently.
during the days after your bampy died, i felt peace. its hard to explain; i felt it so strongly. but the unanswered questions were always in the back of my mind. i struggled to understand why god would have given me such an awesome dad, only to have ripped him away form me way too soon. we had plans, dreams, memories to make. and living the rest of my life without my dad was not something i wanted to do.
i had several good conversations with people in those first days. one friend shared a little about her relationship with her dad. it wasn’t good. he had never really been there for her. he was just a lousy dude and a poor example of what a real man should be. she told me how blessed i was to have had the dad that i did, even if it was for a shorter time than most.
and since then, i’ve often been reminded of this truth: i would rather spend a million days grieving the loss of an incredible father than spend no time grieving the loss of an absent one.
jude and lucy, your meme and bampy made me who i am today. they loved me, they molded me, and they showed me jesus. and despite these hard, hard days of grieving my dad’s loss, and as much as i wish it was a bad dream, i am thankful that i’m experiencing heartache. because, ’tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all.